Working on a collab

I'm really excited to be working with KatieCav on a collab for the Strictly Charlie contest.  So I can't say anything about it, since it's an anonymous contest, but we worked for almost 3hrs just flushing out the story on Gchat today and I had an absolute ball.  We ran through probably about ten ideas then whittled it down to one and then began outlining the story from there.  Granted, I didn't get any of my work done, but it was fun.  Now I just have to start writing it.  Which of course makes me a bit nervous now that someone else is relying on something that I'm supposed to be creating.  So yeah, nervous, excited and hopefully our two styles will compliment eachother.

Anyhow, keep your eyes peeled when you read the Strictly Charlie stories and see if you can find ours in the mix.

Quotes

I just want to feel a little bit of love

Is that too much to ask for?  I need love, love love love love...

Say no to drama

Since joining the Twifandom I've really not been privy to all the drama that has whirled around the community over the course of the past two years.  Until it effected someone I know and while I can see both sides of this situation, it bugs me that this is even a problem.  Maybe I'm just older now and have very little patience for said drama, but really.  Isn't there enough room in the fandom for everyone, big and small?

I don't know.  Maybe I'm oversimplifiying things - or the fact that I hate confrontation.  IDK.  Whatever it is, I just wish the drama would end, everyone would go back to liking one another and we move on.  But perhaps this fandom isn't like a fairytale and factions have formed & that is that.  Which is too bad really, because I like the idea of both being able to coexist so that I can do both.  But alas, time will tell.

FF.net fail and blah blah blah

So this past week's fanfiction.net failure has seemingly rocked our little fandom on its collective asses.  Everyone has been scrambling to get their updates posted with a work around (I'm sure not helping the poor developers fix whatever ails the site) and I've resorted to posting my one shots under misc books since the twilight fandom is riddled with error messages.  I hope that someday I'll be able  to correct the category its been posted in, but for now, it sits lonely under Misc. Books.

I've also found that Twitter really just eats up a lot of my time to no real use.  I check out my feed all the time now, but there's only a couple people who even respond to me, so I don't know why I care to follow everyones' business as much as I do.  It's an interesting phenomenon that I'm still not quite sure how to handle.

When I get home at night - I still have thoughts about twitter and what I may be missing.  In short, nothing, and yet my mind whirs with that question.  I'm distracted and inattentive.  And after reading 107yearoldvirgin's sad goodbye to the fandom, I realize that I may need to put some distance between myself and my addiction.  I don't want my kids or my marriage to suffer from it.  I'm not leaving.  But maybe I need to step back.  I don't think there are many that would realistically miss me anyhow, and that's not me trying to garner pity.  Just the facts - as I'm not a BNA - My full length fic doesn't even have 300 reviews - so yeah, not all that missed really.   Which makes me a bit sad, since like every author in the fandom we pour our hearts and souls into each fic we write, even if it's not that good.  
I'm speaking about me, not anyone else here. 


I wish I knew the magic formula that gets readers to leave you reviews.  Because I have not mastered it in any way, shape or form.  And it pains me.  Literally to have hundreds of hits on a story and to get two reviews out of the lot.  But alas, I can not force anyone into commenting, reviewing and the like.  I can just hold up my end of the bargain and leave reviews for the stories I read.   Because having been on the end of no feedback, I know it sucks, so I leave 'em some love.  All I can do is hope that someday Karma, that illustrious bitch that she is, will someday allow me to write something worthy of garnering people appreciation and feedback.

I'm not sure why I'm being so introspective right now, but I just am.  I do this every time I post a story and it doesn't get the response I think it will.  Why I put some preconceived notion into my silly little mind, I don't know.  But I do and I'm endlessly disappointed by my previous assumption.

See here - Ass out of U and Me.  Yeah, so I should probably stop doing that, hu?

I have three fic ideas floating around and I'm not sure if I should bother writing them.  Because while I do strive to be a better writer, I know I'll never actually be one (if you get my drift).  And I'm okay with that, truly.  I have a degree in finance and business, not writing and English.  I can write the hell out a business plan, but ask me to be creative and not just write the facts, I stumble.  So I have stumbled and fallen down and gotten back up and tried something new.  I have a few more falls in me, but these ideas I think are so worthy of someone doing them justice, and I'm not sure that person able to do it is me.

Alright - so I guess I should go see what I missed.   I'm an addict.  And for now, I'm okay with that.



The cloud has broken!

It's amazing how coming out of the fog of unhappiness feels so freeing.  After a five day emo-athon it feels good to be back to my happy go lucky, snarky, unwavering self.  Not sure where she was off hiding for the last few days, but the fact that she's back makes me feel whole again. 
So yeah, here are some snarky e-cards that made me smile just a little bit more today!  Enjoy.

This is for you KatieCav!!

And in honor of the beginning of lent -

I'm going straight  to hell, but you already knew that by now.

Figured since I had this blog, I might as well use it to post some of my fics on here too.  I probably won't post Twilight Reflected in Brown Eyes, because, well it's 20 + chapters and I can't be bothered to be honest and no one's really going to read it on here anyhow.  I will just post some of my o/s that I've written for contests and the like - just cause I can.

Maybe even pimp out a contest or two if I can. 

So slowly figuring things out.

Patience Please...

I've been coerced asked to create a blogger account for my new work on Twific Reviews.  But I don't really have much to say about myself really so we'll see how this page progresses.

So have some patience as this ol'dog figures things out around here.

I'll probably end up posting some of my one-shots and contest information on various pages if I can figure it out and  maybe some of my favorite fan-fics or books I'm reading now.  

Have a little faith & patience and it will take you a long ways.