In love with this artist - LEONID AFREMOV

I have this pic on my sidebar but didn't know the artist.  Now I'm in full on love with him, but the pic I love I can't find to purchase.  Here's just some of his fine work.

Quotes

I just want to feel a little bit of love

Is that too much to ask for?  I need love, love love love love...

Behind the Lyrics & some pics I love

So I didn't win the Behind the Lyrics contest - no shock there, but I am really proud of the story.  I think it's one of the better ones I've ever written.  Some of you may disagree.  Its still not a master work of art, as I doubt any of mine will ever get to that stage, but I love this story and I hope you do too.  I'm just waiting to hear back from the contest to make sure it is okay to post it, since officially they are announcing the winners on Wed.

I've asked the fabulous FrozenSoldier to create me a banner for the story and can't wait to see what she comes up with in that beautiful creative head of hers.
I sent her off a couple of pics, even though I don't know if any of them will work.  Here are some favs of those I sent.

Some pics for a O/S I"m working on.

I'm thinking about writing a fic and it's going to be dealing with the hot burning fiery kind of love that over the years cools to an ambivalence almost hatred of one another because of how far you've drifted from one another and who you originally started out being.
So - I went pic diving & came up with some pics that got the juices flowing.

Say no to drama

Since joining the Twifandom I've really not been privy to all the drama that has whirled around the community over the course of the past two years.  Until it effected someone I know and while I can see both sides of this situation, it bugs me that this is even a problem.  Maybe I'm just older now and have very little patience for said drama, but really.  Isn't there enough room in the fandom for everyone, big and small?

I don't know.  Maybe I'm oversimplifiying things - or the fact that I hate confrontation.  IDK.  Whatever it is, I just wish the drama would end, everyone would go back to liking one another and we move on.  But perhaps this fandom isn't like a fairytale and factions have formed & that is that.  Which is too bad really, because I like the idea of both being able to coexist so that I can do both.  But alas, time will tell.

Easter Bunny Rob

I was looking for a pic for a new avi and I came across this. 

Made me laugh my ass off. 



From Sunflowermallory.blogspot.com

and this one just cracked my shit up

Why yes my dick is made of sunshine and rainbows!



Emo couple pics - more inspiration for Love like Fire contest

An ode to Charlie

Some Billy Burke P0rn to try and get my juices flowing for the Charlie Contest.

Can't forget the 'stache!

FF.net fail and blah blah blah

So this past week's fanfiction.net failure has seemingly rocked our little fandom on its collective asses.  Everyone has been scrambling to get their updates posted with a work around (I'm sure not helping the poor developers fix whatever ails the site) and I've resorted to posting my one shots under misc books since the twilight fandom is riddled with error messages.  I hope that someday I'll be able  to correct the category its been posted in, but for now, it sits lonely under Misc. Books.

I've also found that Twitter really just eats up a lot of my time to no real use.  I check out my feed all the time now, but there's only a couple people who even respond to me, so I don't know why I care to follow everyones' business as much as I do.  It's an interesting phenomenon that I'm still not quite sure how to handle.

When I get home at night - I still have thoughts about twitter and what I may be missing.  In short, nothing, and yet my mind whirs with that question.  I'm distracted and inattentive.  And after reading 107yearoldvirgin's sad goodbye to the fandom, I realize that I may need to put some distance between myself and my addiction.  I don't want my kids or my marriage to suffer from it.  I'm not leaving.  But maybe I need to step back.  I don't think there are many that would realistically miss me anyhow, and that's not me trying to garner pity.  Just the facts - as I'm not a BNA - My full length fic doesn't even have 300 reviews - so yeah, not all that missed really.   Which makes me a bit sad, since like every author in the fandom we pour our hearts and souls into each fic we write, even if it's not that good.  
I'm speaking about me, not anyone else here. 


I wish I knew the magic formula that gets readers to leave you reviews.  Because I have not mastered it in any way, shape or form.  And it pains me.  Literally to have hundreds of hits on a story and to get two reviews out of the lot.  But alas, I can not force anyone into commenting, reviewing and the like.  I can just hold up my end of the bargain and leave reviews for the stories I read.   Because having been on the end of no feedback, I know it sucks, so I leave 'em some love.  All I can do is hope that someday Karma, that illustrious bitch that she is, will someday allow me to write something worthy of garnering people appreciation and feedback.

I'm not sure why I'm being so introspective right now, but I just am.  I do this every time I post a story and it doesn't get the response I think it will.  Why I put some preconceived notion into my silly little mind, I don't know.  But I do and I'm endlessly disappointed by my previous assumption.

See here - Ass out of U and Me.  Yeah, so I should probably stop doing that, hu?

I have three fic ideas floating around and I'm not sure if I should bother writing them.  Because while I do strive to be a better writer, I know I'll never actually be one (if you get my drift).  And I'm okay with that, truly.  I have a degree in finance and business, not writing and English.  I can write the hell out a business plan, but ask me to be creative and not just write the facts, I stumble.  So I have stumbled and fallen down and gotten back up and tried something new.  I have a few more falls in me, but these ideas I think are so worthy of someone doing them justice, and I'm not sure that person able to do it is me.

Alright - so I guess I should go see what I missed.   I'm an addict.  And for now, I'm okay with that.



Contest info

Okay - so of the two stories I submitted to the Lady In Red contest - one won 1st in the public poll. 
Thanks to anyone who voted.  There wasn't a lot of stories (3 to be exact, and two were mine lol)
But I had fun writing them and so thanks to anyone who did read & vote.
I've now posed them as pages on my blog, so you can read Sacrificial Lamb & Same Time Tomorrow here.  Just click on the tab at the top and read away.

I still have a story in the Behind the Lyrics contest, so read those & vote.  Who knows, maybe the one you like will be mine?

Have a great Sunday!
M

Colin Firth Dream - le sigh

Last night I had this crazy ass dream about Colin Firth -

well I suppose he was in it not about him so much.

We were in a St. Patty's day parade in some really small town.  Why my choir from HS was singing it, IDK  - but my old choir director was in charge & for some reason I couldn't march with the rest and had to sit on some float & wave?  Odd.

But Colin & I had this crazy attraction but he's married (damn it, even in my dream he's taken) but is having a hard time fighting his feelings for me.  His wife shows up and knows about the attraction & I go sulk off.

Now Colin doesn't show up to the parade (he's hung over in his hotel room) so I have to step in and sing whatever solo he was supposed to sing.  I go find him in his hotel room and I'm ignorant to him trying to console me that even though my feelings for him are recipriocated, he can't follow though on them.  Instead I feel like a fool & once again go and lick my wounds alone.  He comes and finds me and we kiss.  Of course that's when I woke up, but hell, I kissed Colin Firth in my dream.  No smexy times, but still, I really really wanted to go back to sleep in that dream. 

Young & clean cut...

Copied from Amethyst Jackson & Zodiac Facts

If only my husband would listen to this particular rule...

http://zodiacchic.tumblr.com/tagged/gemini

Dreams and random other shit

So I"m not sure if it was the sausage I ate for dinner or what but man were my dreams freak a deaky last night.

The first one I remember had Robin Roberts (yes the black one from GMA, as my husband so eloquently asked this AM) She refused to report on some story that was 'too close' and so resigned.  VERY ODD...

Then I remember going on vacation with my family.  I remember my dad being there, which is nice since he's dead & all and I don't regularly dream of him, so it was good to see him.
But somewhere along the way things got freaky.  Like Vampires were involved and some how my son in the dream (no RL thankfully) saw one of them kill another and then eneded up crippled because of it.  They wanted to kill my son too because he was a witness, but didn't?  Anyhow, it had crazy dark and yucky shower stalls and Aro doing his if I touch you you'll read my mind but I planned on somehow killing them or keeping them away from my son so I wouldn't shake his hand?   Then I though what about gloves?  Since theres no skin contact?  Anyhow, rambly thoughts aside, it was a very dark and distrubing take to my subconcious.
OH, and I think our vacation was supposed to take place at Disney World.  Yeah, not the happiest place in my mind, that's for sure.

I think I need to stop reading vamp fics.  Y/N?

Inspiration has struck

Like a bolt of lightning out of the sky, inspiration struck just as I put my head to pillow.

I was thinking about the plot (aka smut) of my St. Patty's themed story which progressed to me thinking about a couple doing it in the back alley of a club while a nameless bouncer stood in the shadows and watched.

THIS is my inspiration.  So I'm thinking about doing an Emmett based story in that he's the narrator of the story and spins the wild and sexy tales of behind the scenes of this popular night club.  Each chapter can be a different night's tale of sexy exploits.  This will give me lots of options for pairings as well as types of risque themes that in my past stories I didn't want to 'sully' my wholesome characters with.  Yes?  Following me so far?

So once I finish up my St. Patty's fic, I'll be moving on to Behind the Velvet Rope - the Emmett Chronicles
YES!  I"m very excited.  So excited in fact that I literally jumped out of bed to write my idea down.


So that's it so far.  Can't wait to start fleshing out the info & all the rest of the goodies!!

The cloud has broken!

It's amazing how coming out of the fog of unhappiness feels so freeing.  After a five day emo-athon it feels good to be back to my happy go lucky, snarky, unwavering self.  Not sure where she was off hiding for the last few days, but the fact that she's back makes me feel whole again. 
So yeah, here are some snarky e-cards that made me smile just a little bit more today!  Enjoy.

This is for you KatieCav!!

And in honor of the beginning of lent -

I'm going straight  to hell, but you already knew that by now.